New year, new life?

I am genuinely scared of the coming (new) year. I don't know what to expect. I just know that I am already feeling the pressure. Mostly the pressure to graduate soon. I feel all the weight being put on me..by myself and by those around me. It would be accurate to say that I am not at all looking forward to 2014. (Well, maybe a tad bit.. AKA LaBoracay and my friends are coming to visit.) I must really brace myself. Come January, I will not have a social life anymore--that is if I want to excel in school (which btw I would love very much..not to sound GC (grade conscious) or anything). Priorities, Mikhaela!!! And self-control.

For 2014, I need to finally be legitimately consistent. It's the only way I can turn my life around. I must be better. I must unleash the beast that I know is inside of me somewhere. I must be competent. Braver. Smarter. More responsible. Otherwise, all those that I have sacrificed would be for nothing. We're going to be back at square one. And nope, we definitely do not want that. I must work 100x harder. I have already done the first few steps (1. acknowledge that there is a problem 2. identify the problem 3.list possible solutions 4. leave comfort zone), I just need to follow through. Yupp, that's it.

PLEASE HELP ME. I know I can do this but I can't do it alone. I need guidance, reminding, and acknowledgment. Thanks in advance!

Incidentally, I am really enjoying my Christmas break. It's been great so far. Spending so much time with my family and friends (while I still can )': ). Although, I have yet to do academic-related shit real soon. But for now, Happy Holidays, everyone! Enjoy the happy vibes that the Christmas season brings. (:

♥ Mikhaela.